a_person wrote:I have not lost even a pound since this thread started. If anything, I only put on an additional stone. Self control is so hard. I should just have my lips sewn like in Coraline. I just can't do it, nor get myself on my cross trainer or bike machine.
If I were rich enough, I'd do liposuction!

Can we sew buttons on your eyes too!?! Dont feel bad, forget the past. Think forward...start now!
Maybe the key is you need motivation, incentive and intermediate goals to drive you forward? Set yourself goals that you can be passionate about achieving. could be anything but it must be highly incentive. My first goal is to get down to the qualifying weight to do a free fall parachute jump, then ultimately be the best badminton player and cricketer I can be)...uh alright, its none of those...there's this girl I like, and she aint noticing me...but er, point is, think of your goals as your incentive, visualising the glory of the end result!
So you got a X trainer and Bike? Go on, start using them! One highly motivating item I b*ght myself is a heart rate monitor watch. I have a Polar one. Using their website, you can get a tailored weight loss program to follow utilising heart rate zones that can apply to any cardio equipment, so in your case, the x trainer and bike. Its really really motivating because you are always aiming for a target (in this case, heart rate zones) and not just training aimlessly. These watches cost from £30, the more expensive ones count calories too which is useful but not essential.