Fortunately, it didn't involve another woman........no it was just food ............. junk food
........and lots of it!It started quite innocently one night last week - I got a sudden urge to have a bag of crisps (my first in over 5 weeks). At first I resisted, then I kind of talked myself into thinking that I shouldn't be so down on myself about it and that it was only one bag of crisps we were talking about here after all. If I really wanted a packet I should have one - it surely wasn't worth all the aggravation and self-denial. Heck I was doing good on my diet - what difference would it make.....
So I had that bag of crisps ....... and boy did they taste good! But it didn't stop there, oh no! Within 20 mins I decided that I would go and get another packet....So I did, but I didn't just take one - I took another two....and cut myself a big slab of cake too.
For some stupid reason this pattern of overeating and eating all the bad stuff took me over for the next few days. It was like a different person was doing it not me - I simply couldn’t get hold of myself. Good food choices and reasonableness of portion control went completely out of the window.
It was only what? Four days or so? but I could actually feel that I was putting weight back on. During those days I didn't do one scrap of exercise - no exercise bike, no rower, no cycling, no walking, nothing! I was annoyed with myself then, and I'm still very annoyed with myself now - I didn't even feel able to come on here over the last few days and post about it - partly because I knew that everyone would say "don't beat yourself up about it, these things happen, forget about it and start afresh" and partly because I knew inside that that advice was spot on.
So I'm back here now shamefaced, three pounds heavier than I was last weigh day (I'm actually surprised that it isn't more) but ready to start afresh once more. I'm now even more determined!
One positive thing that happened during what I'll refer to as my "lost days"
- I was looking on freecycle, between episodes of gorging, and spotted a dual action exercise bike being offered locally. It's the kind of thing that gives your arms a workout as well as your legs. To my simple mind it simulates MsT and Diane's Nordic Pole Walking activity. Well...at least it would if you could imagine doing it whilst riding a bike rather than walking 
Anyhow long story short - the machine is now sitting alongside my exercise bike and rower. The place is looking more like a gym every day
- just need to get someone (me) back working on the machines now. It will happen today......and, I have a walk and a bike ride pencilled in with my pal for tomorrow, assuming the weather is not too atrocious.I need to take some time to fully check out the thread to read what’s been happening with people here over the last few days. But… I’m wishing Rawr a speedy recovery.
Also, good luck to my very caring friend Diane for her weigh-in today!
I lost over a stone in weight last summer but "found" it again in the winter months. It must be the same as someone with a gambling or drinking problem you convince yourself that once won't do any damage and before you know it you can't stop yourself and all the self control you had for weeks goes out the window in a flash!! 
